of course the judge ( a white person ) tossed out the confession, said that Gamache hiking and hitch-hiking 50 miles two days in a row was circumstantial, and didn’t think Gamache being a white supremacist was relevant when my grandma was a native woman. okay..
I am so angry right now. I was with my mother for a couple minutes and she managed to invalidate me, insult me, and wish me harm all within a couple minutes. She was listening to a talk radio show where the host was saying transgendered peoples have no right to go into the bathroom of their choice. My mother began with “ I know you think you are one of them but” (I know who I am thanks) “these gays and t**nnies-” (gee thanks for the dehumanizing slur) “are taking away the rights of normal people, you know, straight white people” (you mean the oppressive group? And I was unaware that there were no white people who are transgendered hmm) she went on to say that straight people are being oppressed and that gay people and transgendered peoples have more rights now than straight people. Her argument was that if a straight person (again because no transgendered people are straight, right?) and cis people aren’t allowed to complain if they see a person who is transgendered enter their bathroom. And that transgendered people are murderers and will kill the women in the bathrooms.. (As if transgendered people aren’t murdered all the time just for being themselves, and as if there’s any real danger or mass murders committed by transgendered peoples)
It was so cruel, invalidating, and just plain wrong. She’s so wrong. And she always tries to confront me with her transphobic hoping I will justify it for her. Have I ever gone to her saying she should die for being cis? No. She has said the same to me though. Have I told her she, and people like her, ruins this world? Nope. Have I ever told her that her mere existence is evil? No. But I have to hear her say that I am one of the evil people who are ruining the world and that I should die. Then I am supposed to be nice to her.
What I didn’t like about our powwow was that it has become more of a competition than a showcase for our students in our program. The point of our powwows is to show off our student dancers and drummers, to announce our students who made the honor role, who were published, or who did something great in some way. Our dancers should be the Head Boy and Head Girl, and shadow dancers, our adults should be the Head Man and Head Woman. Instead the powwow committee, which I am a member of, decided on bringing in bigger name dancers from out of town who are not in our program. Why? For attention, for crowds, for money. This is suppose to be about our children. The students I voted for didn’t get any of the spots even though they are in our program, they help me with teaching craft classes, they are always around, and some of them even win in some competitions. We are not about becoming a huge, popular powwow, we are about our children.
people often ask me why i am so distant, and take so long to make friends, but then i want to have them see my flash back of meeting this white girl in my English class and we were slowly getting to know each other. We went to Walmart and she pointed at a Black baby and said “look at the cute n*glet”. I called her on her shit and she was so shocked, “what i said cute not ugly!”. I never hung out with her again but she was still on my facebook and she posted about how she will always call out racism no matter who it is.. I don’t put my label of “friend” on just anybody. They have to be idk an actual good person.
tw: transphobia
i feel like i am going to lose half my family… my sister-in-law wrote a very offensive transphobic comment on her facebook and lots of her friends and family members wrote on it agreeing with her and saying even crueler things. and i effin lost it. i wrote a long, angry reply on her post about how violent and problematic all their statements were, and especially hurtful. she has not responded yet but i know her. she will probably get so mad at me that she will never let me see my niece and nephews again.
So the self-righteous, uncaring bus driver is going to get in trouble today. She always picks up early and drops off late, every day, so she always ignites my anger. Today when Little Bear got on the bus the bus driver wouldn’t help her with her seat belt. Keep in mind that this is a Special Ed. bus and my daughter does not understand how to put the belt on herself. I’m watching LB try to put the belt on then she starts screaming for help. The bus driver doesn’t get up, instead she drives away, while I run trying to catch up. I didn’t catch up. So I called her boss and made a complaint. Her boss said that they aren’t allowed to start the vehicle until all children are strapped in. Luckily, the bus has cameras. So she’s busted.
But while that helps for the future, I am unsettled. LB will be screaming and crying because she will be frustrated that she couldn’t do it and also she is scared of being unbuckled. So she will be angry when she gets to school. And that bus driver gives no fucks. She doesn’t care how much she just traumatized LB, or how angry LB will be the rest of the day.
I’m going to complain until she is fired.
if someone wants to talk to you they will. if they don’t, move on.
so this just happened.
A sale’s person came to the door and my father answered it. The male salesman would not accept my father’s “no” for an answer and the salesman went on to say “hey, if you don’t help me out the female workers are going to beat me. Tell me, who runs this world? Men! So help me out here!”
And my daughter had came to the door and heard all his bullshit.
I started yelling out him to get “his sexist ass off our property”
and he said “ *laughing* that’s why men rule because you females are so emotional”
college counsellors i think i can decide for myself if I can only take ESL classes or not, thanks.
Okay everyone; I re-signed up for fall classes but I am not satisfied because I only got two of the classes from my original schedule. I wanted all the classes I had originally signed up for because I needed them to graduate. Now I have to take other classes, hoping that they can fulfill something. I was so close to graduating and then I lost my classes. Ugh.
new classes:
Intro to English Literature
Environmental Ecology
Environment Lab
World Music
Multicultural Communication (because somehow not all communication is multicultural???)
Creative Materials