Having you share your experiences has been beneficial to me. I also suffer from an ED (bulimia) and I know I really need to recover. I feel so wasteful. I'm a 95 lb girl eating enough everyday that could feed 3 grown adults, then wasting it down the toilet. And heck, even at 95 lbs Im still not as skinny as the white girls my age who don't even have to try. I guess I just fail at everything.

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I wish there were magical words that I could say that could cure all your pain and fears. I wish you recovery. I wish you happiness and health. I wish you love for yourself and love for and from others.

You are loved.

You are love.

I love you.

Please don’t hesitate to reach out <3 

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7 years ago

if u have an eating disorder then why are u fat?

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..fat people can have eating disorders. anyone of anybody shape or size can have an eating disorder. My eating problem is not eating daily because i fear that we will run out of food, even when there is plenty of it. I will go a week without eating then have highly fatty foods like chips or a frappuccino. So my body retains every bit of fat because it is in survival mode. Don’t stereotype people with eating disorders; your words can be harmful.

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7 years ago

another fat ass perpetuating eating disorders while pretending to be all for body positivity but secretly hate the way they look themselves

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I do not have an eating disorder because of “hating” the way I look.

I have an eating disorder because ever since I was a small child withholding food was a common punishment and neglect was a daily issue. Whenever there was food I would make sure my siblings ate; and now that I am a mother I feel guilty over eating anything because it could be taking away from her. Luckily we have enough food to sustain both of us but that doesn’t cure my fears or guilt.

I am fat because when I do eat/drink something it is high in fat and my body  is in starvation mode and retains everything I eat. I eat every three to five days. I drink tea everyday (with sugar). I know my diet is not as it should be but I cannot bring myself to eat properly.

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7 years ago